I’ve always heard of nesting but have never experienced it. With Lily I had no time to nest but with baby #2 I have been busy preparing our home for our sweet girl due October 19th. I’ve noticed I can easily fall into the trap of becoming too busy, preparing our home, the baby’s room, making freezer meals and researching what baby items we might need; that it can be all to easy to neglect my heart. I’m kind of embarrassed to admit that but it’s true. This family of ours and the children God is allowing us to raise has been born out of years of what we thought were unanswered prayers. But he was answering our prayers, he was going to grow our family. It just wasn’t the timing we had planned. I still have a hard time wrapping my mind around this, God is growing our family!!! We have a child and will have more children. It might sound goofy but the reality that we get to be parents still leaves me in awe. We went so many years longing for this and now we are here! Only God, only God!
There are moments I still get chills, butterflies whatever you want to call it when I look at Lily and think about where we have come from and that I get to be her mom. Matt and I together get to steward her precious life. And here comes baby #2 and to say I am feeling every emotion possible would be as accurate as I can explain it. Excited, happy, nervous, scared and anxious are just a few. I feel like it doesn’t matter how much planning I can do to prepare nothing will really prepare me for two. I have talked to so many friends who have multiple children and there is a thread of similarity to what they have to say.
#1 It’s crazy
#2 You will develop a new normal (routine)
#3 You are giving your children the best gift, a sibling.
I recently added a new sign to our house. My friend Ashley makes them and I see it everyday and am reminded of God’s goodness and his faithfulness to us. But it’s not just for us, it’s for everyone. He is for you, he is on your side. The moments you may think he’s forgotten or doesn’t care it’s just not true. I can say this because that’s what I used to think. If you are in that season or have been in it for a period of time, maybe for years, then discouragement and questions can start to feel like they are over running your faith. Like, does God really know what he’s doing? Or does he even care about me, those were some of my biggest struggles. Well he does, I promise you he does. Sometimes all we can see is whats in our front seat or we keep looking in our rear view mirror even. But God sees our future the mile or two ahead the kind of stuff we couldn’t even imagine or comprehend he knows it all and he sees you!
Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. Ephesians 3:20
So much Love